This is how I see the world. It is a result of my experiences, my environment and my own ability to understand and feel. As a child my favourite quote that I swore to myself to base my life on came from one of my favourite authors, J.K Rowling.
“Besides, the world isn’t split into good people and Death Eaters. We’ve all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That’s who we really are.”
I see darkness inside myself; the parts that make me afraid of myself. I see hope and good too and that is the part I choose. Our choices in life define who we truly are.
“Having parents that were really angry and petty and abusive when you were young is weird, because it makes a part of you grow up to want to be kind, to generate good things, to be a source of peace and well-being for others; but it makes another part of you grow up to be quick, sharp, and spiteful, and that’s always the part that shows itself first in a hard situation, so it’s a struggle between your hateful gut reactions and your wish to not add any more misery to the world. It’s a hard balance, and the people who really, really know me – I know they see that anger flash in my eyes before I quiet it, if I quiet it… I want to overcome years of conditioning, and with gentle, constant force, I know I’ll mellow it. It just takes time.”
I think it’s finally mellowing for me.
N.B. Also, god is not real.